Just some random snaps from the week.
It’s just a little over my first week here and it has been challenging. Don’t get me wrong, I knew it was going to be, but I’ve actually struggled in areas I didn’t think would have been an issue. I was definitely under the illusion that my Spanish was far better than it was, (newsflash, I’m actually shit), so communicating with literally anyone has been super difficult. I think I’ve retreated into myself a little bit which is exactly what I do not want to do, as that’s not going to solve anything.
I don’t know if it’s subconscious stress and slight anxiety, but this week I have been tired constantly. I’ve taken the ‘siesta’ culture, (I’ve noticed that some of the shops and restaurants close for maybe 2 hours, from 3-5pm, but I’m not sure this stereotype we have that everyone goes home at lunch to sleep is actually legit), to a new level, and have had a nap every day since I’ve been here. Even when I wake up, I’m still absolutely exhausted. It means I can’t be social and don’t feel like myself at all. I honestly feel like that super boring flatmate who’s just in her room all the time; like the ghost of the flat.

In terms of things I’ve actually achieved, I would say that right now it feels like nothing. I’m trying not to see that negatively; it’s still only the first week so I have a lot of growing, learning and developing to do still.

For next week, I want to NOT BE SO DAMN TIRED. So I’m going to up my iron intake and try to get into a bit of a better nighttime routine. I’m going to try to be a bit more social and make friends. I need to try and speak to people and get rid of the fear that I’m chatting shit or that I’m gonna get halfway through the sentence and not know the word for something. I may aswell just give it a good go. Better an ‘oh well’ than a ‘what if’, amerite?

// Algunas fotos de la semana.
Ahora, he estado en España por un poquito más de una semana y me ha desafiado mucho. Yo sabía que todo no iba a ser fácil, pero me he costado en la areas que no me anticipaban.
Pensaba que mi idioma español que bien, pero la realidad es que yo hablo como mierda, entonces comunicar con alguien ha sido muy difícil. Me he puesto muy tímida, que no es ideal porque no va a resolver nada.
Además, estoy cansada constantemente. He tomado las siestas cada día, pero todavía estoy agotada. Esto significa que no puedo ser social y no siento como mí mismo en absoluto. En este momento, soy la compañera de piso que nadie ve nunca; como la fantasma del piso.

En cuanto a lo que he logrado, en este momento, diría que he logrado nada. Siento que no es algo negativo. Es la primera semana entonces tengo mucho tiempo para crecer, desarrollar y aprender.

La semana que viene, no querría estar cansada, entonces aumentaré la cantidad de vitaminas que tomé y crear una rutina por la noche. Intentaré ser más social y conocer a nueva gente. Tengo que perder el miedo de hablar en español, es importante que yo intente.